My person

What’s a soulmate? Someone who loves you unconditionally. Your best friend. Your number one supporter. Someone you can be comfortable around without a second thought. I’ve gone back and forth about soulmates. They’re real. They’re not. Back and forth back and forth. But now I know, they’re real. My best friend is my girlfriend. I’ve…

Grieving what I never had

I found my person, like my legit person. I’ve never been so sure of it. But that means I have to say goodbye to something else I’ve been holding on to, sometimes without even realizing it. My ex and I had a situation, and we’re not talking anymore because of it. She knows I’m with…

Manifest Love

I listened to a three part podcast about manifesting love not too long ago. Speak, believe, recieve. That was the main takeaway. Speak what you want into the universe. I want you. I know I shouldn’t because it could ruin everything. But, I think this is what I want. This type of love. Believe you…

Stream of Consciousness – Decisions

It is so hard for me to make decisions, why is that? I’m terrified of fucking up, or making the “wrong choice” but truth be told I’ll never know the difference between a right and a wrong choice, because it’s impossible to know the other outcome. Right now I get to decide whether or not…

Are you going to date her?

I’ve spent hours with my ex this past week. Every second is more confusing than the last, and incredibly messy. She kissed me, hugged me, and told me all the ways she loved me. Today was our last day together. I cried last night and barely slept, trying to prolong her departure. She going back…

Who is my God?

Lately I’ve craved a relationship with God. Something I lost a long time ago. Being raised in a catholic school, I was taught about a “loving God” who punished sinners. One day I went home begging my mother to get baptized because that day we learned you’d go to hell if you weren’t. This was…