Last night we talked about our past, our types, the reasons I didn’t fall for you the first time around we dated. It feels like a lifetime ago. When I look back on that time I see a completely different person, in both you and me. I wasn’t ready. You weren’t exactly my normal “type”….

Over winter break I went on a trip to Florida with my partner. It was magical, warm, sunny and full of love. On this trip I was on the phone with my sister, and mentioned that I might be moving in with my girlfriend sometime between April and July. “Don’t rush it” she said. My…

Being a mom is hard. It’s the hardest, yet most fulfilling job I’ve ever had. As of late someone in my life has made me question myself as a mom. My ability to love and cherish and care for. But the people in my life fill me with confidence. My sister. My best friend. My…

Today I feel overwhelmed to let the woman I love know just how much she means to me. Ashley, you are the love of my life. Your smile lights up my world and your presence brings be peace and joy. I hope you know that I notice every little thing you do for me. Giving…

My mental health isn’t great today. It could be because I’m hungover, or maybe because I didn’t take meds last night, or just because I have a tendency to beat myself up. Maybe it’s a combination of all three. Regardless of the why, this is where I’m at today. What prompted this shit show? Sometimes…

You’re listening to one of our songs and you ask me if I could be your mind for you, what would I be thinking. I can’t answer. I don’t know how. I know you’re looking for some reassurance, and I’m unsure if any of my answers will provide that. I’m coming down from my anxiety….

I know my brain makes up crazy things when I feel like this. I can’t trust my own thought process in these moments. Which is exhausting. Sometimes I wish I just had a normal, easy going brain. I mean, I know everyone gets anxious in some capacity. Everyone knows what it’s like to have a…

“What are my hobbies?” Right now, nothing. I don’t have any hobbies. So how do I answer this question. I tell my girlfriend what my hobbies used to be. Reading. Writing. Cooking. Running. Yoga. Meditation. Why don’t I do them anymore? My girlfriend asked me if she holds me back from these things. And she…

You know me. The real, unfiltered, sometimes troubled version of myself. The real god damn deal. You pay attention to me. I’ve never felt so seen in my whole life. And somehow, you love me. You love me so deeply that I can feel it. I never thought a love like this existed. Until you…

My girlfriend and I both cried yesterday, for separate reasons. Long stories short, it was a rough day for us both. Some things came up that challenged us in ways that took us by surprise. For me, something came up that would normally cause me to shut down. But my partners response to the problem…