Phone

I was at my girlfriends house while she was out of town and I saw her old phone on the counter. Immediately my conditioned up brain says: omg I could look through her old phone. Which was quickly interrupted by this thought: wow, that was a really bad habit. I would NEVER go through my…

My person

What’s a soulmate? Someone who loves you unconditionally. Your best friend. Your number one supporter. Someone you can be comfortable around without a second thought. I’ve gone back and forth about soulmates. They’re real. They’re not. Back and forth back and forth. But now I know, they’re real. My best friend is my girlfriend. I’ve…

Grieving what I never had

I found my person, like my legit person. I’ve never been so sure of it. But that means I have to say goodbye to something else I’ve been holding on to, sometimes without even realizing it. My ex and I had a situation, and we’re not talking anymore because of it. She knows I’m with…

Manifest Love

I listened to a three part podcast about manifesting love not too long ago. Speak, believe, recieve. That was the main takeaway. Speak what you want into the universe. I want you. I know I shouldn’t because it could ruin everything. But, I think this is what I want. This type of love. Believe you…

Stream of Consciousness – Decisions

It is so hard for me to make decisions, why is that? I’m terrified of fucking up, or making the “wrong choice” but truth be told I’ll never know the difference between a right and a wrong choice, because it’s impossible to know the other outcome. Right now I get to decide whether or not…