I made my girlfriend cry last night, again. What is wrong with me. Why do I always fuck up? That’s where I’m at right now. Mad at myself. I get like this, it’ll pass but for the moment I’ll beat myself up about it.
Last night she said I feel distant. I do feel distant, I don’t know why.
Last night she asked me if my ex pops up in my head, I said yes because I couldn’t lie.
So what, sometimes I miss someone who had a big impact on me.
That’s normal, right?
It has to be.
I choose you, every single day still.
Is that not enough?
I’m not crazy. I feel crazy.
Maybe I am self sabotaging.
But why would I do that?
What’s wrong with me?