I made my girlfriend cry last night, again. What is wrong with me. Why do I always fuck up? That’s where I’m at right now. Mad at myself. I get like this, it’ll pass but for the moment I’ll beat myself up about it.

Last night she said I feel distant. I do feel distant, I don’t know why.

Last night she asked me if my ex pops up in my head, I said yes because I couldn’t lie.

So what, sometimes I miss someone who had a big impact on me.

That’s normal, right?

It has to be.

I choose you, every single day still.

Is that not enough?

I’m not crazy. I feel crazy.

Maybe I am self sabotaging.

But why would I do that?

What’s wrong with me?